Here’s the Real Deal

It just so happens a startling revelation came to my mind today: why am I in such a serious business?  I’ve been going through a lot of soul searching lately, you could say it’s been the result of many unpleasant experiences (combined with many pleasant ones as well!)  Soul searching allows a person to really just take a good hard look at any situation for a little perspective.  Who can’t use a little perspective now and then?

Sometimes I think a little perspective involves quite a bit of bitching.  But really, that’s not what I’m doing.  I’m just being very open to any and all exploratory measures.

Going back to the previous thought — me in this so-called world of serious business.  You know, after a while, murders and sex offenders and fires and death really just gets ya down.  They say people in our line of work really get desensitized to that sort of thing.  And every now and then, you just have to joke about some things (not like we’re morbid, but ya, maybe we are in a way).  Anyway, scatter-brained.  I’ve always been told I’m this goofy sort of guy.  So the question becomes, “Why am I not using my talents in such a way?” 

I had this thought the other day (and I’ve kind of been trying to live by that motto this week): what if I just didn’t say things that were goofy?  What if I held back on some of my thoughts?  You know, a little extra screening before it comes out of my mouth.  It hasn’t been too bad I guess.  I’ve held back on saying things I knew were goofy.  But is that the real me?  Maybe sometimes, people everywhere could use a little more screening involved with their thoughts.  Who knows. 

Well, the “Lists” will continue to be made as I explore more of myself and my situation.  Not that any particular “situation” is even happening.  But like I said before… it’s all a matter of perspective and keeping a tally on things.