Here’s the Real Deal

It just so happens a startling revelation came to my mind today: why am I in such a serious business?  I’ve been going through a lot of soul searching lately, you could say it’s been the result of many unpleasant experiences (combined with many pleasant ones as well!)  Soul searching allows a person to really just take a good hard look at any situation for a little perspective.  Who can’t use a little perspective now and then?

Sometimes I think a little perspective involves quite a bit of bitching.  But really, that’s not what I’m doing.  I’m just being very open to any and all exploratory measures.

Going back to the previous thought — me in this so-called world of serious business.  You know, after a while, murders and sex offenders and fires and death really just gets ya down.  They say people in our line of work really get desensitized to that sort of thing.  And every now and then, you just have to joke about some things (not like we’re morbid, but ya, maybe we are in a way).  Anyway, scatter-brained.  I’ve always been told I’m this goofy sort of guy.  So the question becomes, “Why am I not using my talents in such a way?” 

I had this thought the other day (and I’ve kind of been trying to live by that motto this week): what if I just didn’t say things that were goofy?  What if I held back on some of my thoughts?  You know, a little extra screening before it comes out of my mouth.  It hasn’t been too bad I guess.  I’ve held back on saying things I knew were goofy.  But is that the real me?  Maybe sometimes, people everywhere could use a little more screening involved with their thoughts.  Who knows. 

Well, the “Lists” will continue to be made as I explore more of myself and my situation.  Not that any particular “situation” is even happening.  But like I said before… it’s all a matter of perspective and keeping a tally on things.

My Lists

Let’s just say that the opportunity to change situations as they stand now may be presented to me soon, if not with one avenue, perhaps another.  But is it the change I want — I need?

Recently, a very good friend recommended that I do the list, and so I figured what better way to make a list than on here… right?  By the way, if this seems vague, I’m sorry.  But I know what it means.

Apparently, first I have to start with Pros and Cons of current situation:

PROS – Great home, great home life, great church family, in-laws close by, North Texas excursions like wineries, the ability to weigh in on my own assignments and carry them out, nice community, starting to get on track with finances and health.

CONS – Early hours, deprive myself of sleep, environment of people in a certain situation is less than desirable (big one), wage may not be comparable to my experience

ATTRIBUTES OF DREAM SITUATION:

Not having to go to bed early, big city market, region located in or around close proximity of friends and family, environment where people are professional and respectful, owning a very nice and comfortable home

I believe, without going any further, I can already name the areas of concern, isolating it from the rest of the lists.  But how many times does everyone have 100% of every single positive attribute.  Probably less than 1% of the time.

Now where does this make me end up?  Hmm….

Standing My Ground

I was presented with a very difficult situation Friday.  Long story short, I made a boring interview interesting by being creative.  Let’s just say a less-tactful and always-must-be-right person did not like it.  Too bad.  I’m not going to apologize for my style.

In the past, I’ve always waffled back and forth when it comes to sticking to my guns.  Why should I have to feel bad for trying different things, making a boring situation fun, or thinking about things from this perspective instead of the “normal” one?  For everyone who has tried something new, I say good for you!  Good for us!  This world is made up of people who think differently.  That’s why we have such a diverse population.  We don’t all think alike.

Maybe the idea didn’t always work out, or maybe the task didn’t always succeed, but how will we ever know how to do it in the future?  I’m not going to apologize anymore.  It’s not like I try to do things the wrong way to begin with.  It’s not like I don’t want to succeed.  So for all you out there who try to muffle the creative talents or different perspectives of the world, SHAME ON YOU.  And double shame on you if you try to make people like us feel bad about it.

And to this person, it’s time you started treating people with respect.  I’m tired of having to always accommodate myself just for your particular style. 

You know how I roll.  Accept it.  Move on.